I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

(Not seeing that loving you)
That’s what I was trying to do

Feelings... what are they? such a mere emotion can cause us[ HUMANS, SLAVES OF FEELINGS ] to be so troubled, so occupied with it, wallowing in it and not focusing on the goal right in front of us.
Yet again, with such a distracting emotion, how is one supposed to conquer it? Find other distractions and live in self-denial? On the contrary, sticking to that emotion would lead to a likely commotion and a mess.
How will this slave of feelings settle this? Sit on the fine line that separates feelings and being empty on the inside?

AND

Why is Feelings coming to find me at this point of time??

Weihan

it's a lazy saturday afternoon and i seriously have nothing to do!!

here's something interesting for you guys.

Look at this interesting chair which you can find at City Hall Mrt.

Oh wait. It does not pass off as a chair. Not even a bench!
Have you sat on one of these benches before? They look awfully familiar don't they?

You rest your butt on it and you keep sliding down. Right?

so.... let me teach you how to sit on the butt rest.

Two EASY STEPS!

First step, put butt on bench.

Second step, react accordingly.

haha. now. isn't that interesting? haha.

oh yeah. Yesterday, i had an exercise session with my K.E buddies! Namely, ME, jin jin, Nikos, Sue Ying, Timothy, Whey Jian and Yong Hui. Oh yeah. Kenrick too! he joined us later.

We all had basketball. Everyone was like beginner-type for basketball except for Timothy and Whey Jian. haha.....

After that, we had volleyball session. That was super fun. pushing the volley up and hittin it across. haha! I had a 1.6km run+ jog. I AM DETERMINED TO LOSE SOME MORE WEIGHT. i lost 5kg since last month until now!

But alas! we had pizza hut for dinner. Lots of cheese and chilli powder dashed on our pizza. Oh yea. tim left with his friends for dinner, Jing Xiang and Jocelyn joined us for dinner. haha.

here is a pic of our yummy pizza!

That's all for today. i think i shall go tacke Fantasie Impromptu. =)

Bryant

It's been quite some time since my last post.
I would like to give my thanks to those who have helped me through this trouble i had last week.
The first person to thank would be Nikos. He has helped me loads, he is a good listener and has given me lots of constructive advice. If not, my relationship with my dad would not have been better today.
Next, this group of people who listened to me. Namely, they are: the 4 J's ( Jing Xiang, Jin Jin, Jocelyn, Jessica), Pak Wing, Kenrick and Sue Ying. *if i have left out anybody here. Please let me know. i will add you name in. Leaving out your name is not on purpose. haha*

After that day i stayed out at Nikos's place, when i went home the next day after the letter to my dad was given. Dad treated me differently. Initially, I felt awkward because, the silence was too unusual. Thus, i had to initiate a conversation with dad. I felt rather f.a.k.e at that moment. But after a few weeks, things have turned out better. My dad is not nagging me for the slightest thing. I guess, since dad has changed, i must make an effort to show some changes to him. Speaking of changing, i think i MUST and HAVE TO correct my habit of being late. I think everyone around knows. I shall show you guys soon that i will change!

Okay! so now, moving on the long awaited birthday photo's!

The sub comm people!

From left to right

Jing xiang, Nikos, ME, Ming Li,Vincent, Evelyn, Jin Jin and Sue Ying *bang!*

Oh boy! Starting up the fire sure took a long time!

This is the reason why the wedding ring sits on your 4th finger.

Group Photo. But not everyone is in it. The staircase railing might crumple. haha!

Another one! Watch it Kenrick! dun fall!

That's all for the pictures! i will put all of them on my photobucket to view on a later date!

Just a reminder to all Klavier people that. it is 28 days to the concert after today!!!! Are you Excited already? haha. All the best for practicing people!!!

Bryant

=)

Firstly i gotta say that, i had a bloody sore eye yesterday. It's not because i watch porn or anything, but because i took out my dry contact lenses and the contact lense kinda cut or did something to my cornea. it bloody hurt! then in the evening, around 8pm or so, i found out that i was feverish. What a nice way to kick off the week; MONDAY BLUES some more!



Secondly, lets say, on the surface, my dad and i seem to be talking nicely to each other. Lets see how things turn out the rest of the week. If not, something will happen. A revolution perhaps. now things seem to have escalated. Maybe from the start i should have just kept my mouth shut.


Sigh.....my growing up pains. so depressing. i am not wallowing in self-pity or anything. I think can't keep listening to the things every day.

...................

I am in the darkest HOUR of my 18th birthday! EFFING FUCKED UP WITH DADDY ISSUES. I HOPE THE STORM CLEARS SOON. ITS GETTING OUT OF HAND AND OUTRAGEOUS!!

BRYANT
mood: FUCKED UP

I know, the pictures are not up yet. lol. and i have yet to get the pictures from Raphael! Never mind! this week was eventful!
Check out the Youtube link below!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZm-d3ZFRR4

I am not putting th video here because it will totally lag the whole blog. so, please click on the link above to see what i have been doing during CCA! [ Klavierensemble]

Besides that, this semesters will start getting busier and busier. Now, i am actually sleeping 6 hours each day. As the weeks pass, 4 or 5 hours of sleep might even be possible!

Monday= Klavier day!
Tuesday= Attachment day + study with Klavier day!
Wednesday= Klavier day!
Thursday= SIAN day!
Friday= Sian + study with Klavier day!
Saturday= ZOMG. BORING DAY!
Sunday= PKS day and maybe KLAVIER DAY TOO!

LOL! can you see how much my life revolves already MY CCA?!
I LOVE MY CCA! TRULY MADLY DEEPLY LOVE KE!! haha.....

Oh yea. today is DEEPAVALI. And....i still have E-learning to do. ZZzzzzzZzzz...... 4 articles to summarize and send to the lecturer by 23:59...

okay okay...just when i turn 18, so many issues with my dad start popping up everywhere! its either, i am getting more irresponsible or he is getting naggier!!

Anyway, mum's leaving for china tomorrow. and she is having steamboat at home and KLAVIER IS HAVING STEAMBOAT TOO! HOW?


DILEMMA!!!

WEIHAN ZOOMS AWAY!!!

Hey all! it has been half an october since i last updated. Last Friday, 26/10/2007 was my 18th birthday! Everyone please wait a little longer okay? I know how much u guys want to see what i post up. haha. Just wait until i get the pictures from Raphael. Haha. Meanwhile...

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